Despite my incredibly stressful week of staffing and schedule changes last week, the first day of school today went off without a hitch. Well, there were some bumps in the road of course as my sixth graders and I got to know each other: awkward silences, uncertain hand-raising, sometimes no hand raising at all, and there were a few times during our short four hours together that I wondered if I could keep my students occupied until noon. But then something magical happened...
We started talking about books and what we read over the summer.
One student told me about how she read The Wanderer by Sharon Creech and I excitedly handed her my ARC of her latest book that came out today, The Great Unexpected.
Rot and Ruin, so I walked over to my bookshelf and gave him my signed copy of Bad Taste in Boys by Carrie Harris and told him, "Don't let the pink cover fool you. This is totally a book for boys. There's lots of falling appendages and black vomit. If you love zombies, you'll love this book."
Still another student came up to me after looking at my science fiction book boxes, showed me a copy of Matched by Ally Condie and asked, "Is this a good book?" After I assured her it was, she then inquired if she could take it home tonight because she didn't want to wait until tomorrow to start reading it.
This got me thinking...
What are we doing in our classrooms to nurture more of this attitude? My job is being judged on whether or not my students can fill in bubbles on a test answer sheet, but how do you evaluate student engagement? How do you measure those joyous moments of learning and discussion that happen in classrooms everyday that most people don't see?
Therein lies the problem. It can't be measured. It can only be felt and experienced, which is why evaluating my job based on test scores will always be a bone of contention for me. I'm lucky that I teach in a school where high stakes testing is not the culture. But it is a way of life for so many teachers and I am angry on those teachers' behalf. When I look at my students I don't see test scores. I see young minds ready and willing to learn. And so much of what we are doing to students in classrooms today in the name of reform is turning these young, curious minds away from learning.
I have to remember that when I look at a student, I'm not looking at a test score. I'm looking into the eyes of children who are begging me to see them and hear them. What am I going to do this year and every year to show them they have been seen and heard?